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December 24, 2007

Note from Paris

I actually like not being in a relationship.
I like being able to come and go as I please.
I like being able to indulge my every whim and do whatever the heck I want whenever I want.
I like spending money on me me and me..
I like spoiling me with anything I want..
I like that I don't have to check in with anyone about where I am going and when I will be home..
The only person who cares what I do is me
and I am pretty liberal and accepting about what I do and who I do it with.

but now I am having one massive freak out...

All because of that damn This American Life episode this week on Living Alone.
It scared the crud out of me.

It was about this woman who died alone- just her dogs left.
She lived in a house filled with a bunch of crap and ad no family, no one who cared..
I also discovered that people who die with no one to claim their remains or plan a funeral or anything get cremated and buried in a massive grave once a year.

And it scared the shit out of me and made me think
what will happen when I get older?
When I get sick?
When all the guys I seem to go through like kleenex are off and married?
When all my friends are off with their families and no longer living with the Lost Kids?

I have no family..
no next of kin..
no nothing...
shit.

not feeling good right now...

Posted by aynne at December 24, 2007 01:02 PM

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